Should have been an Actress


I’m stuck in a time machine
she said
I have no control over it,
and it’s faulty,
it keeps dropping me into the past,
opens me up like a surgeon
and lets all my old feelings loose
from where they’ve been stored
and I feel it all again.

I’m back in that moment,
reliving it, then suddenly
I appear in the present,
and I’m still trying
to catch the old memory
it’s bleeding out of me,
I’m trying to stuff it back in,
and then
I’m in a made up future.

I’m on my knees
just begging for it to end
so that I have no future
and all this pain
will just fade to black.
I’m the opposite
of Ebenezer Scrooge,
I’m staring at the gravestone
that it’s my name
carved into the grey.


Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in: Logo

You are commenting using your account. Log Out /  Change )

Google+ photo

You are commenting using your Google+ account. Log Out /  Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out /  Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out /  Change )


Connecting to %s